i got pissed off today.

i got pissed off today.

im not gonna be subtle. yeah, im pretty much mad at those ppl who refused to go up for the CAP thanksgiving. i mean, what kind of attitude is that? ok, if you don't want to go, fine. but to like eat the free lunch, then go and play bridge and refuse to go for the main essence of the whole thing...it's really bad. i don't know if they feel guilty in the least or anything, but somehow i doubt it. i switched off the lights and um, screamed, but i suppose they just laughed and turned on the lights, thought i was a crazy idiot, and continued with bridge/cards/wadever. we went in twice to ask them to go out, so did nick. nope, no response. ok...so let me clarify this. soo...to you guys, is that all church means to you? fellowship? free food? cards? fun? you know wat, tts just fine. i was so pissed off i dont think they even knew tt i meant it when i kept saying i wanted to kick their asses. i did. really. anyway, it just occured to me. you know how i think all of you probably felt fantastic after going to church camp, hearing all the messages about evangelism, yadayada. BULLSHIT. oops=X if you think that all that is just fun and laughter, with no "boring" messages (as you might think) along the way, come on. i really felt like..you know what, then why do u guys even bother coming for CAP? just dont come la. just sit there and play bridge. woopee...

oh yeah, btw, to whoever reads this and hasnt stopped reading, tell whoever it is who has my cards that i dont want them back.. yup. just KEEP them. i cant be bothered to take them back. from now on, i may behave like last time, but towards all those ppl that stayed back there, im looking at them with different eyes. seriously... anyway, for all those ppl if any reading my blog, PLEASE dont come and tell me im overreacting, dont be so angry, and so on. i know im overreacting maybemaybe. i know im not like all righteous and good myself. all this is just how i feel and felt then when it happened. ok? okay! i just dont want to keep it bottled up inside me and pretend it was all fine and dandy and i wasnt angry at those ppl...cos that IS how i felt. so yeah.

on another side, the CAP thanksgiving was fun=) a tad boring and long when it came to sharing of the cell leaders and all, but there wasnt any talk la, actually. haha. then the games part was super funny/fun. i hope ppl after reading this dont think im some crazy b____, but oh well. whether they feel guilty or not, wadever. i dont really care la, somehow. im pissed at them, but like they care?? hah. okk im going to shangri-la now..good food baby.